what should i do???

i wanna write what i feel now . i don't know what, but i'm sure, i am not in feeling good now.
it started from him, them, and the strangers.
give me strength, Ya Rabb.... sometimes, i give up to do something, in the other hand, i'm too weak and exhausted to do something. i wanna take a rest at moment . even, i have negative thinking to take a rest forever. i don't why.... but i wanna live to get a better life . and i think, i should be patient and wise .
i should be better person than last . but, actually i prefer to be silent person to be noisy person .
sometimes, i can't control what i said .
yap .
yap .
yap .
yap .
i should be a good person :)